Wednesday, 24 November 2010
Ofcourse I also needed some time to help Sophia in her new situation. She went from a high school with 100 students to one with 1200 students!! A different way of teaching, different language, different students (city kids!), without her friends, without her sister!!. Boy, if I think of what she is going through, and looking at her... she is like her father very strong, helping me with her, many times logic advises ( she is only 14 but so very wise). She does not feel that the lessons are difficult, more the terminology and the way of teaching is strange to her and therefore difficult. From next week she is going to follow piano lessons at the Royal Conservatory of The Hague, they say she is a real talent!! Also she want to play volley ball, so we have to look into that as well. I hope that she is gonna make some friends soon and finds her way. I do trust in it that she will, she is like her sister Daphne, a very strong character, thanks God.
Daphne is still trying to organize her daily life and trying to find a routine. Not easy if you think that she "landed" in such an international group of students, so many different cultures, philosophy, traditions, this takes time, she lives like on "cloud nine". For what concerns the way of living together, with so many good kids from all over the globe, they all became good friends. What concerns the school they had some troubles there (principal lost his job!) they are a bit too much left on their own. Which worries me from time to time, as all mothers would? We have seen each other several times now and these times are always nice. She also comforts me a lot, even on a distance. To think that she is comforted by so many children and that she is enjoying all the interesting activities they do, makes us feel good and strong as well. We are lucky with two loving caring girls, that we can call our daughters. We are very proud!!
As said Panormitis is reacting very well on his chemo treatment. He is getting ready for his 3rd block. One week of 400 mg (highest dose) chemo, after that the body needs the following 23 days to recover from this "attack". He is more active, despite the fact that he gets easy tired (no wonder), communicates better, shows much interest in the world around him, is painting, photographing (not enough, he says)going out visiting museums, friends, concerts ( Level 42, Classical Music, Prince and now he wants to go to U2 ). One of the happy moments for me is when I see him enjoying the art in exhibitions, galleries, museums etc.etc. and then having a coffee with me and listening to him talking about what he saw, how he looked at it, and explains it in his wonderful words. He always was a great speaker and he got this back, lately!!!
We just had a nice weekend in Maastricht where we visited Daphne and enjoyed each others company. The weather was also nice, some sun and not too cold, so we could sit outside at the "Vrijthof".
And myself? Despite the fact that I am not "working", days fly by and it seems the day never has enough time!! One week ago I found another apartment, smaller, closer to Sophia's school and her music classes, the center of The Hague and lest but not least,it's not that expensive as the flat we are in now. Thanks to our friend Peggy, who also, together with Josseline, told us about the piano teacher for Sophia. We are lucky to have friends like them.
If I have time, I will put some pictures on this blog.......
p.s. we will be leaving for Patmos on the 17th of December, great..... Xmas at home!!
Tuesday, 26 October 2010
वही दोएस थिस कोमेस इन चिनेसे???
Moira
kisses,
Hetty
Tuesday, 19 October 2010
Monday, 18 October 2010
Yesterday morning I had arranged tickets for a "coffee concert" in The Hague where talented students performed (Saxophone and piano ). It was very enjoyable and interesting composers. After we had lunch near the Denneweg in De Bodega, a very old fashion place for journalist, politicians and artists. I used to go there in my younger years. They had some nice live music and we stayed longer then planned. As the weather was so nice we decided to walk in the old center and got home tired, satisfied and happy.
As we had our anniversary last Friday (which we all forgot for the first time!!) I was thinking of what present to bring him. I came back with a real professional easel and this morning when I woke up he started already to paint. He surprises us all the time with his beautiful creations, for me he is a real artist. Not only in his photography but now also in his paintings. And he always made poems. As you understand this all helps him a lot to get through this difficult period, and we are so thankful for that.
Today we brought a bicycle from my brother in law, Bert, for Sophia as she will be needing this to go to school. In the afternoon we went to the park with our dog and had a wonderful walk. They were singing Greek songs and we had a nice time.
I will try to add some photo's soon.
xxxxx Daphne, Sophia, Panormitis and Hetty
Friday, 15 October 2010
Panormitis loves it when people write something on his blog....
Marianne, lief dat jij ook schrijft, hij vindt het zo leuk!! Ja, laten wij hopen dat het droog blijft deze winter. Alhoewel sneeuw wel weer mag hoor, dat maakt zulke mooie plaatjes!! So far , so good!! kus xxx
Thursday, 14 October 2010
delft and olives.....
Sophia is doing well at her school, she loves doing physics, music and ofcourse ancient greek. Latin and German are both new languages for her , but she seems to enjoy that as well. She is complaining that all her classmates are younger, I understand that completely and told her to be patient.
Next week is autumn holiday and then we can try to find a piano teacher for her and .....a bicycle. Daphne is coming as well and we will go out to visit museums and maybe to the Efteling?? a fairytale park, the oldest one in Europe in the middle of a extremely beautiful park. Let's hope the weather will be nice to us in that week, so we can also make nice walks in the park and on the beach/dunes.
that's all for today,
love from all of us
xxxx
Tuesday, 12 October 2010
after the visit of the oncologist....
In the morning we went with Sophia to visit her new school, met up with her teachers and had a tour through the school. Panormitis was very satisfied with what he saw and liked the teachers as well. Sophia had to make a test of more then two hours in order for them to find out where she will be needing any extra support.
It is all very new and quit difficult for her as teaching will be 50% English and 50% Dutch. I hope she will make friend soon which makes everything much lighter. She is a bright girl and I believe in her, but I do not have high expectations for this year. As long as we can be together and she is doing her best, that is fine with me.
Daphne was came over from Maastricht and we all had a wonderful sunset walk for an hour next to the sea. Panormtis loved it and was picking shells, shells and shells. Regretting he did not take his camera with him as it was a beautiful evening. It is unbelievable how strong he is, I love him more than ever and am very proud to be his wife.
All and all we had a good start being back in The Netherlands.. let's hope luck will stay with us!!!
love to all of you,
Panormitis, Daphne, Sophia and Hetty
xxxxxxx
Friday, 8 October 2010
Back in The Hague since yesterday
A big efgaristo , we love you all,
Panormitis, Daphne, Sophia and Hetty
will write soon
Sunday, 19 September 2010
should be laying down myself, but.....
Yesterday my brother sends me an email in where he says that there is a breakthrough in the development for curing braintumors. This research is done by a children oncologist and Panormitis neurosurgeon Dr. P. Witthamer from the VU in Amsterdam. It has to do with enzymes and it will take a few years to complete this research. For patients of today it will be too late, it said in the news. Ofcourse we keep hoping he will make it. Nevertheless it kept me from sleeping all night long and I must admit that I cried a lot. I will contact Dr. Witthamer and ask if Panormitis would be able to participate in a clinical trial in this field .....???
The photoshow is a great succes, but I feel strange when a photo is bought, as I know the stories behind each one of them. They became a bit like " our babies" in one way. He is very happy to be in the middle of this all, meeting relatives, friends and making new ones as well. He is receiving all the good words and compliments about his work and that gives him surely courage. If time let us, we hope with the money raised we can maybe realize to do a show in Holland or anywhere else. If any one of you know his photographs and can help me setting up a show and has the knowhow, please contact me.
I left him in George's Place " on his own ", meaning one of the very rare times that I am not next to him. It feels a bit strange, but I need a bit of time for myself as well. I have " a million " things to organize before we leave Patmos again.
This Tuesday we will have a little private church service in his family church in Kambos at 07.00 in the morning Greek time. It would be wonderful when you people could help us by sending positive thoughts out to him at the same time. It might help, you know!!! Lots of love,
Panormtis, Sophia, Hetty
Tuesday, 7 September 2010
back in Patmos
He is so happy here and it is so easy for him to leave the house and immediately finding his friends and beloved ones. Since we came here we have not been able to spend one night in the house!! As in Holland I would spend a lot of effort to get him out of the house. We get up every morning around 08.00 o' clock, go out to a beach and swim for 20 minutes or so, then home for breakfast and at 12.00 we have his daily masseur at our home to massage him for a good hour. This is an offer of Susan and Benetos and we highly appreciate this, he really enjoys it and relaxes during and after the massage. After lunch we take a little nap and go out again in the early evening. We have been going to the Music Festival a few times, I think tonight is the last night, which we also enjoyed a lot. Outside of the Apocalyps in the little amphitheater, a beautiful scenery when you look at Skala below.
As soon as we decided, after the meeting with the oncologist, we would be spending the winter in Holland I had to run after finding a good school for Sophia. As now it is not an option anymore to leave her as the only member of the family alone behind in Patmos!! At first she did not wanted to go at all, but now she realizes that it is better for all of us when we would be close to each other. I did not try to convince her with a lot of words, just told her that we would be needing her around us.
After two days she asked me the name of the school and found their website. it is a very interesting school, bilingual ( half Dutch half English ) and it approaches her profile quite a bit. Her being interested in art, handcraft,music, social life, drama etc. they spend a fair time to these subjects. It will not be easy for her as we will be facing a difficult winter, so I decided to put her back one grade, meaning she will be doing the second class again. Anyhow, she will need some time to adjust to the new school system and the dutch way of living in general, not to forget the weather!! We hope she is going to like it and will soon make some friends in Holland. Good luck my sweet Sophia!!
Daphne left Patmos last Tuesday and is now in the UWC in Maastricht. She is totally absorbed by all the new faces and impressions. She is one of the 50 boarders, coming from 47 different countries. She has been "meeting" most of them on Face book and emailing and now finally got to meet them. They all got a new bike with the logo of the school and biked to Belgium last weekend as an introduction weekend to get to know each other better. If I am not mistaking, school has started from today. As Sophia, we wish also the best of luck for Daphne.
Besides being busy by driving Panormitis around, spending wonderful time with him, I also am trying to organize a small exhibition with his photographs. It is a lot of work and I hope that I will be able to realize this idea. Wish me luck!!
that's it for now, dear friends, I will have some more time free at the end of next week ( I hope ) and will post you then.
lots of love and kisses
Friday, 13 August 2010
we were lost in a maskerade....
I do believe that he is getting a bit better. Especially for what concerns his participation in conversation, his interest in the news, politics etc.etc. He lives less in his own world as he did over the last few weeks. We have had some very good talks over the last few days and he surprised me a lot. Because a few weeks ago he did not showed much interest in anything, he is coming back. Only physical he is not doing as I hoped. His left arm does not seem to do what he wants it to do, his muscles are in pain and he is extremely tired.The tiredness is ofcourse not surprising after this "attack" of radiation and chemo!! I have called a masseur to massage him from time to time, she comes to our appartment, which is very convenient. Now he can recover a bit and I hope that I will be able to keep him interesting in undertaking little "trips" with the car and getting outside from time to time. Just driving to the seaside and sitting on a bench at the boulevard is good enough, I think. Siga, siga, as the Greeks say.
Again I would like to thank all the family, friends, people we know and not even know, for their loving support, care, attention, cards, telephone calls, skyping time, emails, reaction on his blog etc.etc.
And Rania, ..... we got Lydia's pictures today and both Panormitis and me are convinced that this little beauty is exactly like her mom!!!!
for today ....
pola filia
Thursday, 12 August 2010
11 august 2010
This was yesterday at a gorgeous lake near Amsterdam where a friend of us has her "woonboot" where she stays as much as she can. I do not blame her, it is so peacefull and beautiful..What a day, what a view, what a friend!! Thanks, for a loveley time in where both you and Panormitis recalled the old days of Patmos. Talking about Willem Nijholt, Mattheo,Tom Stone, Dolly, Kafkalidis house, Panormitis fatherTheologos, the taverna etc.etc. It did him very good. He mentioned while getting into the taxi home that he would love to see you back soon. We will contact you, big kisses.
playing with words
Thursday, 5 August 2010
Tuesday, 3 August 2010
Jasas,
Just came back from the VU hospital. This morning I brought the grils to the airport , they will arrive in Athens at 18.30 this afternoon.
Departing from their father was very hard and emotional this morning, you can imagine. We were all in tears, he gave them some good advices and courage, I am sure for that.
Despite what some other people think, I am sure it was the right decision to have the girls here at this period and also to let them go again back to Patmos. After all, here they had spend such a difficult and hard time, most of it taking care for Panormitis ( and me). They also felt very supportive to be here and offering us their help, but to spend their whole summer on the 11th floor of a boring appartment building, with none of their friends around, is also not necessary. Life goes on, we have to build up energy to be able to face what will come to us in the near future as well.
Ofcourse we are still hoping that Panormitis will get better as he is today and to be able to enjoy as much he can of life. He is trying very hard. Towards the end of the radiation therapy ( 8 more to go) he gets more and more tired, starts loosing his hear as well. After he came out of the hospital where they kept him for three nights to be able to observe him and to try and find out where the fever had came from, the fever came back twice. But we are really allert to it and try to keep him as calm and relaxed as possible. I think it has to do with his swollen left (!) eye, it is a bit infected and we treat it with camomille baths.
Last sunday two wonderful friends came to see us, Rebecca and Sarai. The former Dutch au-pairs of our girls, the best one can wish for their childeren. They gave them soooo much in the time ( 2000-2001) they were in Patmos. Love for handcraft, love for nature, reading books etc. Their whole family is very dear and special to us. We had a coffee in our house and after we took them to a very small pittoresk village called "Schipluiden" near Delft, 10 minutes by car from our appartment. We walked around a bit and ended up having a nice coffee. I serve lousy coffee in my appartment !! The pictures are from that afternoon.
In the evening my brother Freek, his wife and daughter came to our appartment for an "Indonesian meal". I think they liked it better then most people do my coffee!! ( that is for you Alex, when you come again I promise to cook for you too!!) It all felt a bit like "normal" again. I noticed that it is very good for Panormitis and me to meet up with friends and keep in touch with the outside world. He is watching a lot of television and like this he sets his mind of the TV set a bit as well. Something that pleases me especially!!
Yesterday night we went out to have a meal together with Daphne and Sophia. We went to another small village nearby and had a loveley Italian meal. While eating we were all remembering the wonderful time we spent in Italy and as we walked back to the car, Panormitis mentioned that it was such a privelege to have had these fantastic family holidays together. Something so true. People should not think so much of their work, making more money, but spend some time off with their families, it is of such a great importance to life in general. To be able to look back into good and loveley memories, gives you a lot of strenght to carry misfortunes in life. At least that is what I feel it's doing for me.
I will sure miss the girls, but am so happy to know that they will spend some time with their friends and relaxing. They are so understanding, brave and loving girls. They gave me a lot of support and energy. Also their realistic and logic way of dealing with our situation learned me a lot. Enjoy your time in Patmos and we will see you again soon ( hopefully in about one month from now) Kisses for all,
Tuesday, 27 July 2010
Daphne's birthday
27 juli 2010
Daar zit ik dan, Het is Daphne’s 16de verjaardag . Er staat voor het eerst geen taart in de koelkast. Een taart waaraan Panormitis vast en zeker zoals alle andere taarten ( 15 voor Daphne en 14 voor Sophia) tot soms heel laat s’nachts gewerkt zou hebben, Met heel veel liefde en fantasie zou hij in de weer geweest zijn met slagroom, fruit en de opmaak. Ook zouden wij samen de avond ervoor kadootjes ingepakt hebben waarbij hij dan altijd de allermooiste kaartjes bij maakte. Om dan de volgende ochtend de kinderen wakker te maken en met een camera in zijn hand alle öoooh’s en aaaaah’s vast te leggen met een trots gezicht.
Daar zit ik dan. Met deze herinnering werd ik een uur geleden wakker. Helaas niet naast Panormitis en de kinderen in de kamer ernaast, maar in het gastenverblijf van de VU. Het is nu 08.00 uur en heb geprobeerd nog wat te slapen maar het lukte mij niet. Ik zat helemaal stuk op mijn bed en wilde naar de pc om dit vast te leggen..
Toen ik gistermiddag met Sophia terug kwam op de fiets van de Boogaard, waar wij voor een taart op zoek waren, zag ik de ambulance op de stoep van het Churchill hotel staan. In eerste instantie dacht ik dat het voor iemand in het hotel was. Mede omdat ik Daphne en Panormitis nog niet terug van de bestraling uit het VU verwacht had. Maar toen zag ik Freek bij de lift staan en sloeg mijn hart over.
Hij was gaan liggen en vroeg Daphne om wat yoghurt., zij is toen even bij hem gebleven om vervolgens naar de woonkamer te gaan. Toen zag zij hem ineens met grote stappen naar de kapstok afgaan en riep hij vrij hard haar naam. Hij pakte zijn jas en zei dat hij het zo ontzettend koud had. Daphne heeft hem toen goed ingestopt en zijn rug gemasseerd. Hij lag zo te rillen dat zij er zelf onder is gestopt om hem te warmen. Uiteindelijk via Astrid is toen Freek gebeld en hij belde Daphne meteen terug om te horen van haar wat er aan de hand was. En zij beaamde meteen dat er een ambulance moest komen want hij lag te “shaken als een frappee”in zijn bed.
Ik dacht meteen aan een epileptische aanval toen ik dit hoorde, maar hoogstwaarschijnlijk is dit het niet geweest omdat hij al deze tijd bij en aanspreekbaar is geweest. Daphne is er enorm van geschrokken , maar heeft zo een kalmte over haar en fantastisch gereageerd op deze situatie. Had zelf waarschijnlijk meer paniekerig gereageerd. Van je kinderen moet je het maar hebben. Hij heeft hele koude rillingen gehad en daarna liep de koorts op tot 38.5. De ambulance broeder heeft toen contact met het Vu gehad en die stelde voor om niet gelijk naar Amsterdam te komen maar eerst in de buurt na te gaan waar deze koorts vandaan kwam.
Wat een fantastische dochters hebben wij. Want ook Sophia heeft haar steentje bijgedragen om bij Panormitis in het Leijenburg ziekenhuis naast hem te blijven toen ik met Freek en Daphne naar Rijswijk ging om daar wat spulletjes voor de nacht te halen. Het had haar enorm gestoord dat een van de verpleegsters die wat dingen aan Panormitis vroeg in het Nederlands, daarna zich tot Sophia richtte en haar in het Engels vroeg of zijn gedrag anders was dan normaal, of hij vreemd of gek deed. Dit terwijl Panormitis naast haar lag en hierop Sophia aankeek om te zien wat zij ging antwoorden. Dit bracht haar in een onnodig moeilijke situatie , omdat Panormitis natuurlijk sowieso een gedragsverandering ondergaat vanwege de tumor en zij hem niet wilde kwetsen om deze vraag waar hij bij was met ja te beantwoorden..Daar was zij terecht van geschrokken. De verpleegster had haar even apart kunnen nemen om dit te vragen!
Maar zoals ik al zei, wij hebben twee gouden meiden en gelukkig meldde Sophia dit bij mij zodat ik het ook bij de dienstdoende arts in Leijenburg kon neerleggen.. Ook deze arts vond het slordig en zou de verpleegster hierop aanspreken, op een vriendelijke manier zodat zij er de volgende keer bij een volgende patient rekening mee kan houden om iets tactischer met haar vraagstelling om te gaan.
Na een bloed en urine onderzoek kreeg hij een breed spectrum antibiotica toegediend omdat zijn koorts was opgelopen tot 39 graden. Toen wilde zij hem toch liever in het VU hebben en zijn wij om 23.30 met de ambulance vertrokken.
Ik heb vanuit dit zeer gastvriendelijk, door vrijwilligers opgezet gastverblijf de afdeling waar Panormitis net gebeld en er is vannacht nog een arts bij hem geweest. Daarna heeft hij redelijk geslapen, maar heeft ondanks de toediening van paracetamol en de antibiotica nog steeds koorts, wel iets minder 38.5 . Hij sliep op dit moment weer dus besloot ik om gebruik te maken van het internet hier.
Kreeg ineens een fantastisch idee. Hoe mooi zou het zijn om zoiets in Athene op te zetten voor familie leden, een gastverblijf opgezet door vrijwilligers. Kun je je zoiets voorstellen?? Misschien moet ik hier, als het allemaal beter gaat, mijn target zetten om dit ook te realiseren??
Het is nu inmiddels bijna 09.00 uur en ik mag pas om 11.00 uur op bezoek. Ik wil nog even wachten om de meiden in Rijswijk te bellen, misschien slapen zij nog? Voor mijzelf twijfel ik tussen proberen nog wat te slapen ( lukt waarschijnlijk toch niet) of een rondje buiten te lopen en wat frisse lucht te halen? Ik zie wel..
Thursday, 15 July 2010
Saturday, 10 July 2010
Friday, 9 July 2010
I'm a train I'm a train I'm a tracktrack train I'm a train tricketrain yeah......
Thursday, 8 July 2010
Saturday, 3 July 2010
03 July 2010
Tuesday, 22 June 2010
Wednesday, 16 June 2010
Sunday, 13 June 2010
Wednesday, 9 June 2010


Today Panormitis and Hetty left the hospital and came to the apartment that was rented in Rijswijk. The apartment gives them a place of their own, with much needed privacy. At the same time 4 sisters and 2 brothers live within 15 minutes drive. They will not be alone.
Monday, 7 June 2010
Sunday, 6 June 2010
Saturday, 5 June 2010
Friday, 4 June 2010
4 June 2010
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Tuesday, 1 June 2010
Monday, 31 May 2010
At 16 kilos and with a 3 metre wing span, the Dalmatian pelican is, together with the great bustard and the mute swan, a competitor for the title "The World's Heaviest Flying Bird". All three species live in Europe. The Dalmatian pelican has made a very successful comeback in the last 30 years, thanks mainly to nature protection measures. Now it is quickly becoming a very valuable nature tourism asset. Lake Kerkini is one of the most productive fish waters in Europe, and supports as well as a vibrant fishery industry also tens of thousands of pairs of breeding cormorants, herons, spoonbills, grebes and pelicans. In 2009 an EU-financed cleanup campaign removed decades of plastic and other garbage from the lake. Can we make a difference? Yes, we can! Nature conservation works!
Friday, 28 May 2010
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23rd may 2010
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Inleiding
Epilepsie is één van de meest frequent voorkomende chronische neurologische aandoeningen. Men spreekt van epilepsie wanneer er minstens één aanval op is getreden bij een langer bestaande onderliggende hersenafwijking of twee aanvallen die niet zijn opgewekt (bijvoorbeeld voor een hersenfilmpje)Thursday, 13 May 2010
Titel I. Begripsbepalingen
Artikel 2
In deze wet wordt verstaan onder ingezetenen: zij die hun werkelijke woonplaats in de gemeente hebben.
Dus we huren een huis, Hetty gaat er met haar gezin wonen, schrijft haar in de gemeente in, en is vanaf dat moment ingezetene.
bericht: Mijn zus (nederlandse ) en zwager (Griek ) wonend in griekenkand hadden plannen om naar Nederland te verhuizen, samen met hun Dochter die na de zomer in Maastricht gaat studeren, de jongere andere dochter komt ook mee.
Tot onze grote schrik is er bij mijn zwager een hersentumor geconstateerd, Wij weten dat met de Europese Grondwet ( vrij verkeer van personen ) niet geweigerd kunnen worden ingezetenen van Nederland te worden. Ook weten wij dat zij als ingezetenen verzekeringsplichtig zijn en verzekeraars ze niet mogen weigeren. Kunt u ons garanderen dat zij in Nederland direct verzekerd kunnen worden, zodat de zorg voor mijn zwager die hij nodig zal hebben direct verzekerd is.
Gezien de urgentie van de behandeling voor zijn ziekte beeld zou ik graag snel een antwoord hebben. mvrgr Freek Vermolen
Geachte heer/mevrouw ,
U vraagt of het CVZ kan garanderen dat uw zus met haar gezin, die uit Griekenland naar Nederland gaan verhuizen, in Nederland direct verzekerd kunnen worden. Dit in verband met ernstige ziekte van haar echtgenoot.
Dat kan het CVZ niet garanderen. Dit is namelijk niet iets waar het CVZ over gaat.
Wij kunnen u wel informeren over de procedure. Als uw zus en haar gezin zich in hun nieuwe woonplaats hebben ingeschreven, moeten ze zich melden bij een zorgverzekeraar. De zorgverzekeraar zal moeten beoordelen of zij als ingezetenen van Nederland kunnen worden aangemerkt. Is dat het geval, dan kunnen zij een zorgverzekering in Nederland afsluiten. Als ingangsdatum geldt dan de datum inschrijving in de nieuwe woonplaats.
Wij vertrouwen erop u hiermee voldoende te hebben geïnformeerd.
Vriendelijke groet,
College voor zorgverzekeringen
The big question is when are you a: "ingezetene", because ones you are, you will be able to get an insurance.
Housing for the Gambieraki family is not an issue, I will take care of that.
If any of you have suggestions, please mail me.